I’ve fought for you. The one thing I vowed to myself that I would never do. That was until I met you. I also promised myself that I wouldn’t find for someone if it wasn’t for the right reasons. You gave me hope and you in a sense, fixed me. You made me whole again. When I met you I was so shattered, broken, and as far as from 100 as possible. But as time grew on us, I grew with you, and you grew on me. This past year with you has been definitely one to remember. I’ve never wanted someone so much. I’ve never wanted to love someone so much until there was you. You and I have never ever once had a rough patch.. until now.
I don’t know what’s so different now. We’ve been here before yes, and we’ve always came out on top because there wasn’t anything that we couldn’t weather. You were my rock, you kept me together, therefore in turn, I kept us together. you know how I feel. from my heart, inside to out. There isn’t an ounce about me that you don’t know. And you see me for the person that I am on the inside, and you look past all my luggage, my scars. You understand me more than I understand myself, and you know how to hold my heart. But lately, i’ve been kind of questioning, why have I not been able to do the same for you. I know how you feel.. but to an extent. I know you know that there’s an emotional connection.. but I don’t believe you truly see the whole picture. But other than acknowledging that there is a connection there, i really don’t know how you see us. I don’t know what we are to you, from your point of view. You can do everything and anything you want, but you can’t just do the one small thing I want from you. It’s not like I’m even asking you to shoot yourself for me.
All I’m asking is for you to trust me. I need you and i know you need me. You are my better half and the higher me, but I just need you to know that i care about you deeply and I’m never going to let you go. not today, not tomorrow, not ever. I’m never going to stop fighting for you until the day we die. Because I want to be with you. i want to marry you. I want to call you mine forever. i want to wake up to you. i want to be happy, but i want to be happy with you.