It bothers me that people let people get to them. And when I say get to them, I mean, get inside their head, and corrupt the entire way that they think.
Till this day it bothers me that you STILL don’t know what happened 2 years ago. And your ignorance, has cost me to lose someone that I cared about oh so dearly about, you. There isn’t a day that I don’t think “what if.” but I still really do care you.

But also, i don’t like the fact that people let what people say, get to them. The worst thing you could ever hear is, “we can’t be friends because such and such.” people talk a lot and they don’t realize that people get genuinely hurt by the things they said.
You’re an amazing person and I hope that regardless of what everyone else says, you’ll still be down for me and that you won’t let everything get to you.

i’ll be deleting my tumblr soon.. if any one cares. LOL.

so get my number, whatever you’d like.

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Now that everything is over and done with, I question myself and ask what really happened. & i’ve come to the conclusion of this. 

You & I are were perfect. Extremely. You fulfilled me in areas that I lacked personality wise. You were my better half. You continually inspired me to be the higher me. It’s been exactly 8 months, and today, I can truly say that I’m over it all.

You made me feel like no one else did. With you, I was continually on cloud 9. You made me the luckiest person to ever live. We hardly fought, we were just always good company together, and on top of that, we were in a long distance relationship. And although it was hard for both of us, we always came out on top. I always missed being in your arms, and how I would long to just be there with you. But now that that’s all gone, I’m learning to be okay.

I won’t lie, there are times where I break down every now and then because I just miss us so much. And that’s something that I’m always going to have to live with because you made your mark and that isn’t gonna go away. I love you, and I always will. But I’m glad that today, I can truly and sincerely say that I’m okay. 
Now, I can give my all to the person I have in my life now minus all the extra baggage. Thank you for being a beautiful person and for teaching me to love myself and be okay in the skin that I’m in. You will always have some piece of me.

And who knows, maybe one day we’ll find our way back to each other, but for now, I know we are where we’re meant to be. 

This is definitely the longest I have ever been away from you. And as much as it kills me, I’m trying my best to be strong for us. I promise you I wouldn’t let anything come in between us. And I’m not letting the lack of having a cell phone be an exception.
That’s why we’re strong. Because regardless of our circumstance, we’ll always find a way to make this work. We’ll be okay.

At the end of the night, I’ve come to accept you & all that you are. Weird, strange, not normal, & my lover. & you’ve come to accept my differences as well. Our relationship is definitely not perfect. We argue, fight about the smallest things, & get jealous. But at the end of the day, I’m glad it’s you. & as long as you continue to stay by my side and let me know that you’re still down for me, and down to fight for me, I’ll keep doing the same. I won’t let you go as easily as I have with people prior.

This relationship is the best thing that’s ever happened to me & I plan to make this work.

i want to type out what i’m feeling but i can’t find words for it.